"Just the jam and the poetry?" he said into my ear. I didn't know who he was. He approached me in the stacks as I browsed. He spoke BBC english and wore a slightly preening twisted smile. In my string bag, over my shoulder, I had a jar of cherry jam and a paperback John Donne.

- Brother of the More Famous Jack, Barbara Trapido


Wednesday, 14 November 2012

Jack Gilbert 1925-2012

Thankful today, that the world was made a more beautiful, more honest place by this man. 




And just one of his poems that I carry with me every day, (and one of my all time favourite opening lines):

Failing and Flying

Everyone forgets that Icarus also flew.
It's the same when love comes to an end,
or the marriage fails and people say
they knew it was a mistake, that everybody
said it would never work. That she was
old enough to know better. But anything
worth doing is worth doing badly.
Like being there by that summer ocean
on the other side of the island while
love was fading out of her, the stars
burning so extravagantly those nights that
anyone could tell you they would never last.
Every morning she was asleep in my bed
like a visitation, the gentleness in her
like antelope standing in the dawn mist.
Each afternoon I watched her coming back
through the hot stony field after swimming,
the sea light behind her and the huge sky
on the other side of that. Listened to her
while we ate lunch. How can they say
the marriage failed? Like the people who
came back from Provence (when it was Provence)
and said it was pretty but the food was greasy.
I believe Icarus was not failing as he fell,
but just coming to the end of his triumph.


I don't have any words that feel good enough or big enough to celebrate this writer who changed me. Thank you, Jack. 

Monday, 29 October 2012

Surviving your PhD

 I wanted to write a post about my PhD, but the trouble is that writing about your research can be a minefield. While there is much about the internet and the access it provides to so many ideas that is wonderful and that makes my job as a researcher easier and more enjoyable, I also find myself coming up against problems that people haven't quite worked out the answer to yet. For example, it is difficult for me to write about my current research on this blog because then that information exists 'out there', and if the world already has access to all your brilliant new ideas then they stop being so brilliant and new, and who is going to want to publish them? This instinct to protect your work is complicated by a desire to celebrate what is brilliant about the internet- we can share ideas instantly,with so many people, and out of this collaborative experience can come great work that is marked by a sense of freshness and immediacy.

While I struggle to make sense of all this, I thought it may be interesting to share some of my own experience of working on a PhD so far. Everybody works differently, but this is the strange, slightly fraught, system that I have built for myself. Recently I have been really struggling to tame an unruly chapter and looking at these pictures they fail to convey the feelings of despair, joy, stress, and just plain lunacy that accompanied the process.
My research always starts with a massive pile of books. I read these, make notes on them, mark pages,split them into common themes, and generally feel upset that after every working day I have nothing to show for myself. This can be a common frustration for me. The writing - the word count - tends to happen very quickly at the end, but before that come weeks of painful slog where I seem to be working very hard and producing very little. I am much more at peace with this bit of the process than I used to be as I trust myself a lot more, but it can still be frustrating. This kind of research is slow and laborious, and would not make a good 'Rocky' style montage. After this I try to make some kind of plan by noting all the different ideas I've come across and how I want to try and fit them together. This usually results in a mad scrawl with lots of arrows pointing everywhere as my excited, tea-fuelled brain comes to the conclusion that 'EVERYTHING IS CONNECTED!!!' and a lot of exclamation marks and capital letters start creeping in everywhere.This is one of my favourite bits. Nothing beats that light bulb moment when you can see how everything fits together. I think this is especially rewarding because so much of what you do up until this point is based on instinct, and every time it falls into place your trust in yourself as a researcher grows. Sometimes I won't quite know why I've chosen to follow certain avenues of research, but these seeming tangents often offer me the most innovative insights into a text.

The picture on the left shows all my lovely chapter notes typed up and put into sections. I have to see all the notes in front of me on bits of paper so that I can move them all around until I have them in the best order. After that the actual writing happens very fast. I think that's another reason why putting in so much groundwork works for me- I like to be able to write very quickly, and to keep the style of the thing quite loose and fluid. I suppose the work is quite dense but I don't want it to read that way.
At this point it may be worth stressing how important it is to take breaks. At first I found this really difficult, but  just because you love your job doesn't mean you don't need to take regular time off from it. It's lovely being able to structure my own working days, but I know myself better now, I know how much the quality of my work tails off if I try to log ludicrous hours, and feeling guilty about enjoying my work and then having 'free time' as well doesn't help anyone. I know how lucky I am, and I don't take it for granted... this PhD is one of the most challenging, stressful, frustrating things I have ever done and I absolutely love it.

Monday, 22 October 2012

Some thoughts on Wallace Stevens

I have been thinking a lot about Wallace Stevens recently. It is hard to pick favourites when you study literature, but I'm going to go ahead and say that Wallace Stevens is right up there on my list. I find his poetry beautiful and moving, in part because of its unapologetically ambitious desire to get as close to the centre of a thing as language will allow, and also partly because of the obvious joy he takes in doing so.

Wallace Stevens wrote that ‘Realism is a corruption of reality.’ In Stevens’ poetry we find an interesting dynamic between what is real and what is realistic. To describe the sea as being ‘like a body wholly body, fluttering its empty sleeves’ may not be considered the most accurate description of what we see, but Stevens argues that metaphor is simply an additional dimension of observation that the writer uses to communicate the reality of the situation. In this poem, The Idea of Order at Key West, what is real, what is being described, is much more than a scene the eye would witness (a girl walking by the sea). Reality is far more complex than mere observation. In the poem reality is changed by the intellectual and emotional responses of the girl, the speaker, even the enigmatic Ramon Fernandez. Wallace Stevens wrote, ‘Do we not begin to think of the possibility that poetry is only reality, after all, and that poetic truth is a factual truth, seen, it may be, by those whose range in the perception of fact – that is, whose sensibility – is greater than our own’. The poet’s way of seeing constitutes a part of their self, of their own sensibility in a way that is natural and beyond control. In an essay on the irrational nature of poetry, Stevens expresses a belief that ‘Poets continue to be born not made’ and that a poet expresses his or herself through the medium of poetry because that is the form their sensibility takes. All experience is subjective, and the fact of poetry is the same as the fact of reality. The sea may be blue, and the sun yellow, but the images Stevens uses to describe that which is visible to us do not disagree with that, they simply enhance our understanding of what he sees by describing what we see through a filter of poetic sensibility.


In his ‘Adagia’, Stevens writes, ‘perhaps there is a degree of perception at which what is real and what is imagined are one: a state of clairvoyant observation, accessible or possibly accessible to the poet or, say, the acutest poet.’ In Stevens’ poetry, then, the distinction between what is happening internally and what exists externally becomes immaterial. The subject and object within Stevens’ work somehow create one another, almost that their existence is mutually dependent. Of reality Steven Shaviro writes, “desire at once actively produces and passively encounters the real. Reality is a fiction, but so is the author of the fiction.” The use of the word ‘author’ is interesting because it relates closely to several ideas in The Idea of Order of at Key West. For example:

She was the single artificer of the world
In which she sang.  And when she sang, the sea,
Whatever self it had, became the self
That was her song, for she was the maker.  Then we,
As we beheld her striding there alone,
Knew that there never was a world for her
Except the one she sang and, singing, made.

In this extract from the poem we see the singer (or author) as the ‘maker’ and we also see that the ‘self’ mentioned is not hers, but belongs to the sea. Interestingly, this self and the self of her song- a self which must on some level belong to the human singer- mingle to become one. One gets the impression of a cyclical quality to the poem that echoes Stevens’ idea of what writing should be. The artist creates the world they represent, in which they create art. Stevens is forced to break through the barriers of the external versus the internal and present us with a world less interested in compartmentalising experience. Reality, it seems, is not created by the subject, neither is it something that exists to which the subject conforms and so to write realistically is to create reality.

The Idea of Order at Key West explores the line between art and reality in another interesting way; through the exploration of language.  Emerson wrote, rather beautifully, that ‘The poet is the Namer or Language-maker. Naming things sometimes after their appearance, sometimes after their essence, and giving to every one its own name and not another’s, thereby rejoicing the intellect, which delights in detachment or boundary. The poets made all the words[...] Language is fossil poetry.’ And The Idea of Order at Key West seems to glory in this idea. Stevens himself wrote that ‘the word must be the thing it represents otherwise it is a symbol. It is a question of identity.’To name an object is for the object to become that name. There must be no difference between the two. Sometimes this fusion of identity is impossible, and Stevens examines the futility of language in the poem’s second stanza:

The sea was not a mask. No more was she. 
The song and water were not medleyed sound
Even if what she sang was what she heard,
Since what she sang was uttered word by word.
It may be that in all her phrases stirred 
The grinding water and the gasping wind;
But it was she and not the sea we heard.

Again, we see Stevens struggle with the internal versus the external. If the singer sings of the sea then what she sings cannot be ‘medleyed sound’ because the singer will always sing in words and not the language of the sea itself. In this metaphor Stevens expresses his own frustration with the limits of language, the idea that the sounds of the sea and the wind can only ‘stir’ in the song and not be fully present there echoes the poet’s struggle to externalise on the page the internal image they long to communicate.

Gaston Bachelard writes that ‘Immensity is within ourselves. It is attached to a sort of expansion of being that life curbs and caution arrests, but which starts again when we are alone. As soon as we become motionless, we are elsewhere, we are dreaming in a world that is immense.’  Here the conflict lies in the idea that when we are stationary and solitary, the space we are in expands immeasurably. This immense world is the world of the artist; it is perhaps what Stevens means when he says a poet has a sensibility ‘greater than our own.’ 
Stevens’ poem The Snow Man is another excellent example of the importance of spaces. In it the speaker claims that 

One must have a mind of winter
To regard the frost and the boughs
Of the pine-trees crusted with snow...

Here language is once more elusive. Rather than capturing the external scene of winter, Stevens has projected words and images associated with it onto the speaker of the poem himself. To suggest the possibility of having a ‘mind of winter’ is to make a bold statement because the reader is forced to remove the barrier between subject and object, allowing both the mind and winter to exist as one entity.  The poem continues to say that one must have a mind such as this and 

Have been cold a long time
To behold the junipers shagged with ice, 
The spruces rough in the distant glitter
Of the January sun; and not to think
Of any misery in the sound of the wind

 The negative ‘not to think’ gives the poem a sense of longing. The speaker wishes to have a ‘mind of winter’ in order to appreciate the scene around him without sorrowful connotations. Stevens’ Snow Man represents the artist who cannot experience his surroundings without emotional experience clouding everything he surveys. The poem is complicated by the desire to relinquish these emotional responses in favour of becoming ‘cold’ – despite the fact this is not a typically desirable quality.  Sharon Cameron writes of the speaker that, “Could he rid himself of all human characteristics, become transparent, he might see the world as it is, mirror it. Instead he makes the world transparent, a creation in his own image.” This idea is interesting because it implies that Stevens’ speaker cannot establish a clear sense of meaning for himself. For Cameron the things that prevent this clarity are ‘human characteristics’, and so we have the added complication wherein the subject projects his emotions onto the external world with such a force that it begins to mirror him, similar to the situation in The Idea of Order at Key West.

For Simon Critchley, ‘winter is the season of hard reality, of the world contracted into the absence of imagination, where the human subject is powerless before an oppressive, violent and indifferent reality.’The speaker of the poem is confronted by this hard reality when he, ‘nothing himself, beholds/ Nothing that is not there and the nothing that is.’Stevens’ ‘nothing’ then, cannot be an absence – or at least not entirely- for this nothing can either be or not be, and in order for that to be true the ‘nothing’ must be a ‘something’. The speaker is ‘nothing himself’, but we know that he exists and has a complex internal dialogue. Bachelard writes in his Poetics of Space that ‘The dialects of the house and the universe are too simple, and snow, especially, reduces the exterior world to nothing rather too easily.’ This reduction is temporary, beneath the snow is the same welcoming space that was once there, the same fertile land of imagination. Bachelard goes on to say that ‘in the outside world snow covers all tracks, blurs the road, muffles every sound, conceals all colors. As a result of this universal whiteness, we feel a form of cosmic negation in action.’And here we see Stevens’ point. If one were to have a mind of winter, to become winter – ‘a listener in the snow’- then he would be part of this great negation, he truly would be nothing, devoid of any imaginative feeling, and beholding nothing. But this nothing is simply a concealment. The imagination allows you to see what lies beneath the snow, and although for the Snow Man this experience is one of ‘misery’ it is nonetheless real and impossible to cast off.

Issues of subject and object and an internal versus external consciousness raise many questions for Stevens. The way in which he writes so intimately about spaces helps us to understand this fascination, and in an extension of Stevens’ ideas of the ‘poetic fact’ we begin to see that for The Snow Man , the internal and external worlds can interact and be felt simultaneously, both co-existing bodily. What I find interesting is the struggle that Stevens faced in searching for a purity of language and form which would most effectively convey his true meanings to the reader. This search is one without an end. The girl will never be able to sing the sounds of the sea just as the writer is never able to entirely eliminate the distance between their mind and our own. While this collective consciousness is not fully reached, can not be fully reached, Wallace Stevens produced moving and beautiful work that comes as close to touching our own imaginative sensibilities as any can.


Tuesday, 16 October 2012

Geocaching and Kenneth Rexroth

Hello friends,

It's been a while. The trouble with doing any large research project is that no matter how hard you try to set many small deadlines they inevitably snowball into one giant looming deadline and eat up a month of your life. Now work is going well and I feel like I can stop, breathe, look around me. Happy.

This is excellent news because it coincided with a visit from our dear friend, Ruth, and a big adventure. I have discovered Geocaching. Maybe I'm waaaay behind the times on this. Maybe you all already know about Geocaching (but, if so, why, why didn't you tell me??!). The map on their website certainly makes it look like I am the last person on this planet to find out about it.

Paul with our first find
For the uninitiated, Geocaching is the grown up (or child-friendly) treasure hunt that will make your heart happy. People hide caches of all different sizes in all different places and upload the coordinates to the website, then you stick in the postcode of where you are and set off to find some near you. We live in the middle of nowhere and there are hundreds hidden on our doorstep. In our (so far extremely limited) experience these geocaches are tricksy things with log books inside so that when you (eventually) find them you can write your name on the list and walk on with that small glow of satisfaction that comes from secret keeping. I understand that there are many different kinds of cache in existence and that some house treasure like toys and sweets, but to be honest the excitement of finding one is reward enough. There are several things about this that are truly brilliant. Firstly, there are millions of them. I mean, the scale is ridiculous and so wherever you are RIGHT NOW you are probably near one and you don't realise. Isn't that a sort of deliciously exciting prospect?(When we first looked, the nearest one to us was 0.2 miles away...only the torrential rain outside stopped us from running out the house there and then.) Secondly, people hide them in beautiful, weird, wonderful places that you may not visit otherwise. We had a glorious Sunday morning walk thanks to the efforts of Geocachers in our area. Thirdly, it's a treasure hunt that feels the same as treasure hunts felt when you were little, except this time you get to hold your phone like a compass because we live in the future. It's just lovely, and magical, and creative, and it is a thing people do to bring joy to others, to share a nice walk with them. I think that's something special.
Ruth and Paul...See! How much joy!
Another thing that has been on my mind this week has been Kenneth Rexroth's poem 'Signature of All Things'. I got so many lovely messages about the Mary Oliver post and a feeling of timeliness that went with it, so I thought you may enjoy this. Although Rexroth describes a 'deep July day' there is something about this poem that seems so of this moment to me. I think the taut, beautiful language owes much to his brilliant translations of Chinese and Japanese poetry, and the result is somehow peaceful and soul-stirring all at once.

Signature of All Things
The view from our house, Sunday night.

I

My head and shoulders, and my book                
In the cool shade, and my body
Stretched bathing in the sun, I lie
Reading beside the waterfall –
Boehme's 'Signature of all Things.'
Through the deep July day the leaves
Of the laurel, all the colors
Of gold, spin down through the moving
Deep laurel shade all day. They float
On the mirrored sky and forest
For a while, and then, still slowly
Spinning, sink through the crystal deep
Of the pool to its leaf gold floor.
The saint saw the world as streaming
In the electrolysis of love.
I put him by and gaze through shade
Folded into shade of slender
Laurel trunks and leaves filled with sun.
The wren broods in her moss domed nest.
A newt struggles with a white moth
Drowning in the pool. The hawks scream,
Playing together on the ceiling
Of heaven. The long hours go by.
I think of those who have loved me,
Of all the mountains I have climbed,
Of all the seas I have swum in.
The evil of the world sinks.
My own sin and trouble fall away
Like Christian's bundle, and I watch
My forty summers fall like falling
Leaves and falling water held
Eternally in summer air.

2

Deer are stamping in the glades,
Under the full July moon.
There is a smell of dry grass
In the air, and more faintly,
The scent of a far off skunk.
As I stand at the wood's edge,
Watching the darkness, listening
To the stillness, a small owl
Comes to the branch above me,
On wings more still than my breath.
When I turn my light on him,
His eyes glow like drops of iron,
And he perks his head at me,
Like a curious kitten.
The meadow is bright as snow.
My dog prows the grass, a dark
Blur in the blur of brightness
I walk to the oak grove where
The Indian village was once.
There, in blotched and cobwebbed light
And dark, dim in the blue haze,
Are twenty Holstein heifers,
Black and white, all lying down,
Quietly together, under
The huge trees rooted in the graves.

3

When I dragged the rotten log
From the bottom of the pool,
It seemed heavy as stone.
I let it lie in the sun
For a month; and then chopped it
Into sections, and split them
For kindling, and spread them out
To dry some more. Late that night;
After reading for hours,
While moths rattled at the lamp,
The saints and the philosophers
On the destiny of man;
I went out on my cabin porch,
And looked up through the black forest
At the swaying islands of stars.
Suddenly I saw at my feet,
Spread on the floor of night, ingots
Of quivering phosphorescence,
And all about were scattered chips
Of pale cold light that was alive.





Tuesday, 25 September 2012

The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society

This is not the cover I have... but look how pretty!
'The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society' is a rare book. Perhaps its feeling of rarity is underpinned by the fact that it is the first and last book by Mary Ann Shaffer who sadly passed away before the manuscript was completely finished. (It was completed by her niece, Annie Barrows, who is listed as the co-author of the book.) I read this book as one of those rare treasures- the kind that you can't wait to tear through but that you also can't bear to finish. When I turned over the last page I went back to the first without hesitation and read the book for a second time laughing, crying, and generally feeling that I was in the warming company of good friends. This is an epistolary novel which I thought at first would put me off as it is not my favourite format, but here it is treated perfectly and displays how, sensitively handled, there can be no better way for a writer to truly embody a cast of different characters. I believed in them all utterly. I was completely distraught when I had to leave them.
The book is the correspondence between Juliet Ashton (lovely, lovely character) and a peculiar mixture of individuals who make up a literary society in recently occupied Guernsey. It is extraordinary how cleverly the plot and characterisation are embedded in these letters. If you want an example of 'show don't tell' in writing then this is it. There is something elegant and understated about this quiet book which charmed me completely. When I had finished (for the second time) I pressed the book into Paul's hands with an urgent request to put down what he was reading right now, NOW, and read this because I needed to share it, I needed to talk about it. I think I needed him to make friends with it in that way we have when we press our favourite books onto loved ones. And he did. He loved it too, and we talked and laughed about characters like Isola and Sidney (best of all Isola and Sidney together) like we knew them. I then gave a copy to my mum and talked it up so much to her that I was afraid she would be disappointed. She wasn't, SHE loved it, and when she finished it she took it over to my Nan. When I saw my Nan a couple of weeks ago I asked her what she thought. No surprise, she loved it too, but what was a surprise was that she had had cousins living in occupied Guernsey, right there where the book is set, and she told us about their big house there and how there was a working well actually inside it, and all about her cousins, and what I'm trying to say is that this book was the gift that KEPT ON GIVING. I think it's so special when a book does this, when it brings people together and uncovers thoughts and stories that you might not otherwise hear. This is why my job is the best, why English degrees are the best, because what could be better than sitting and talking about the shared experience of a book read?  'The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society' is something that I have shared, that I have carried around with me ever since. Now, I hope you will read it, or share it, or talk about it, and I hope all this talking it up won't disappoint you.

Wednesday, 19 September 2012

Just Poetry- Mary Oliver


As I am writing this Lauren Laverne is on Radio 6 asking people to help create an autumn themed playlist. I am working at my desk wrapped up in a cardigan. Outside it is bright and sunny but there is a definite chill in the air. To paraphrase Ned Stark... Autumn is coming. Which is wonderful. I love the autumn. I love back to school and new post it notes and pencil sharpenings. I love it when the leaves start to change. I love snuggling under blankets with a cup of tea and a book, I love scarves and pink cheeks and cold fingers, and hot chocolate. Most of all I love the feeling of 'fresh start' that autumn brings. I wonder if it is because I am so immersed in 'school life' that the start of the academic year always feels like a clean slate to me. I am excited about what this year has to offer.

This poem is one of my favourites. It's right at the top of the list. And to me, this poem feels like autumn. I don't know why. I'm not sure if it's because I first read it in a crisp Tennessee autumn (the most beautiful I have ever seen) or because subconsciously I knew that autumn is when all the wild geese turn up in the UK. (It's true! I just looked it up here. Isn't it strange the things you don't know you know.) This morning I felt a real need to sit down and read it, and it felt good, and warm, and comforting.

Wild Geese
By Mary Oliver

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting–
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

And, if you can handle any more loveliness:

Happy autumn. 

Thursday, 13 September 2012

Much Ado

My not brilliant picture of the actually brilliant set.
Just a quick post. We went to see this brilliant RSC production of Much Ado About Nothing at the Courtyard Theatre in Stratford Upon Avon on Monday. When Paul and I first met we bonded over our shared love of the play and of the Kenneth Branagh/ Emma Thompson film version, so it seemed like such a good sign that our first Stratford theatre experience after moving up here would be a play so special to both of us. We were not disappointed.  Never before had it occurred to me that the plot leant itself so brilliantly to a slice of Bollywood. Paul Bhatacharjee and Meera Syal as Benedick and Beatrice were wonderful- she had me in tears (both kinds). The rest of the cast were great too, even the Dogberry scenes which I have never liked before were perfect, and the music... the music was amazing. You could see everyone wiggling around in their seats because the whole atmosphere was so infectious. I really enjoyed seeing such a fresh interpretation, the way that the dialogue stood up so well to such a creative rendering is testament to the timelessness of the play, to the flexibility and immense possibility ever present in language. Funny, moving, truly joyful, if you can catch it then I would highly recommend doing so. Here is a trailer that gives you a little taste of things: